Dear Camden

Oh My GOODNESS! I die for this picture. This is not his four month picture, but its close enough so I decided to include it. And plus, I can't just say "HEY LOOK HOW CUTE MY LITTLE MAN IS", but I can weasel it in to another post and say that. OK enough about that.....

Well today is your 4th month here on earth, and your 13th month alive. I cannot believe this. For some reason, I am having a hard time with you being 4 months. I don't understand why, its not like you just applied to MIT or anything, or you have some hoochie mama trying to take you to prom. I mean, you still have to be bathed and carried around by yours truly. Its weird to me why this month is so much harder for me than the other 3. I think its because this is the week LAST year that I told everyone that we were expecting. Well everyone at work at least. That really puts things into perspective.

 **SIGH**

So today was a really good day. Daddy got you up and dressed you in a cute little outfit (that you ruined by an accident.....Thanks) and we took pictures, as we ALWAYS do.. and we ALWAYS will. (your mommy is obnoxious, love me or love me more because of it... I get it from your grandma).

Yay!! I am four months..CLAP CLAP CLAP!



ugh... I don't feel good. But I am going to muster up a smile... bleh.

 You ate so well this morning, and you hardly coughed at all last night, which was awesome! Before we left for school, you looked me square in the face, cooed, which coaxed me to lean in closer, and BAM... BARF...Cough, SNEEZE, yep.... you guessed it. All up in my hair, face and mouth. But I love you still. If you weren't so sweet I would get my crafting tools out and make this for you to think about what you did to mommy this morning...

But I will save it for when you are really rotten. Lets be honest, lets save this for when I have time to make this for you.

Dear Camden,

You are a pretty awesome little dude. You are starting to reach for things, EVERYTHING. Its not just your frog or your lion, its the phone, my earrings, my necklace, daddy's beard and the spoon that we feed you with. Sometimes its a lot to control, but you are so cute while you do it. Something else that you started to do this month is to put everything in your mouth. OH.. and melt.my.heart. you have fallen in love with your brother Ollie. You follow him around with your eyes, and when I put you by him you pull his face flaps and giggle. Things that you like, besides the list above: Food, Cereal, making a mess, your swing (but you're getting so heavy the thing barely moves), snuggling your ghost pooh, pulling blankets up to your face (FREAKS ME OUT!), your humidifier, sound machine, your bounceroo, your crib, grabbing your toes, being shy with the baby in the mirror and talking to us. I can't believe all that you do, you must be so tired from learning so much and making so many people fall in love with you. You have your daddy's smarts, smile, eyes, etc, and my.... umm... red hair and LOUD voice. I am looking forward to sharing our first holiday as a family together. YAY family. Happy 4th Month Birthday. Mom and Dad love you very much. xoxo.

 I mean.. seriously.. I am not kidding.. you are soooo chill. Look at you... 

Sunday Funday

man. what a weekend! I need another weekend just to relax from this one.

Travis and I went out for the first time without the baby. I mean, we have gone out before, but we always come back to him, or pick him up if he is not with us. I took him to my grandparents house and he hung out with Ma and Pa before Grandpa Peeps and Grandma Sis came and got him. Fun times for all. We are really fortunate to have family close so that we can spend a little time together.

After finally deciding what to wear, we were off to Perryville, MO to hang out with Trav's work friends. I have heard so much about these people for 3 years now. I FINALLY got to meet them. They were awesome. We had the best time. Trav and I ended up staying in some hotel for the evening because we had too much fun juice.

On the way home, I cursed myself and cried. What a horrible feeling... It literally has been over a year since I felt like that. I haven't been out to that extent in a year. WOW. Mommyness and Age sure does take a toll.

It reminded me of morning sickness. eww. Except, I couldn't think of anything positive to make myself feel better. When I was pregnant, I would think, "oh, this is totally worth it, I am growing a baby". Today all I could think about was how I was growing a huge barf. Double eww.

Travis amazes me. I don't give him enough credit. But today he skipped hunting to take care of his uber dramatic wife, offered to go get Camden, and made the most amazing "chill pad" in our living room. He also held Camden while I fed him cereal.. and Travis doesn't do well with slimy cereal that oozes out of our baby's mouth. In love.  Keeping this post short, gotta go hang out on our chill zone. 

Happy Sunday! Love Ollie :)

Month by Month

At this moment I have a lot that I feel I need to write about. However, I am going to finally post Camden's monthly pictures. He is 15 weeks today and it is apparent to me that I need to start remembering and recording the little things.
 Lets start way from the beginning shall we....

Happy Birthday my Sweet Angel

 At this moment there was nothing else in the room. I have never loved anything so quickly in my life. Coolest, most awesomest experience EVER! Travis and I had the best experience at Missouri Baptist Hospital. Our Nurse, Hessie, was fantastic and was very supportive. And we can't forget Dr. Ladd. Dr. Ladd was the best doctor I have ever encountered in my life. She was fantastic! I recommend her. So I don't need to write about my delivery and all the nitty gritty, but lets just say I can remember that, ALWAYS and FOREVER, 

In your daddy's hands 1 day old.

The awesome newborn pictures taken at 5 days old.

The Happy Family

This picture melts my heart. There is nothing better than seeing my two boys interact.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAMDEN HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Add about 4 weeks and we have Camden at 1 Month! During your first month we got to know each other. We also got to bond as a family. Travis was able to take two weeks off and we loved every second of it. Things that you liked: Your boppy pillow, food, sleeping and your swing. Without your swing, I think we would have had a less than desirable sleep routine. From the very beginning you only woke up once a night. So thoughtful of you!! I tried to nurse you, and that was just something else all in itself. Needless to say, 5 days was the longest I could go. I tried and remember Mommy Loves you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAMDEN HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

During your 2nd month you grew leaps and bounds. I know how fast you grew when you were inside me. I have the stretch marks on my fanny to prove how fast we grew. OOPS.. my baby didn't grow in my arss... Oh well. I needed lots of Big Macs to make you grow. Anyways, I knew you would grow fast, but I didn't know you would change SO much. During your 2nd month you liked: food ( you jumped to 5 ounces), sleep, music, your sound machine, your bouncer seat, the swing, going on walks and being rocked. We also went to the lake for the first time and you loved it. Camden, you light up my life. I think the best part about having you is laughing with your daddy about the funny things that you do. We are a family, and remember, we love you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAMDEN HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

During your 3rd month, You are a completely different baby. I didn't think it was possible to love you more than the very first time I laid eyes on you. Well, you sure do prove me wrong and I bet you continue to do so as you grow. Things you like this month: Food, Creep Mousy, Grampy's crib, Limey, Dot, Frog and Lion, Batting at objects, YOUR THUMB!, and your mobile. You love to talk and smile. You are almost rolling over, and you are so strong. MY O MY you are SO strong. Every person you come into contact with truly love you. Keep it up little guy. You have your daddy's smile, eyes and personality, but you have my attitude and my loud voice. God love you.

In closing, I just put you to bed and I was reflecting on the fact that you are almost 4 months. When I burp you you stretch all the way from my shoulder to my legs. I can't hold you with one arm any more. As I look at my little man turn into a medium sized person, I start to get sad, and then I hear the most glorious sound.... the sound you make when you suck on your paci. MELT. MY. HEART. I don't care if you get buck teeth from that thing, that sound is amazing. Love.

Remember Camden, as we move from month to month, I will make mistakes and try things that people say I shouldn't. You are my love and I will do whatever it takes to help you thrive.

MOMMY LOVES YOU. and so does your daddy. You are awesome.

Love and Pacifiers, Mom