It's been awhile

It's been awhile since I wrote.. As usual. I literally have a list with 17 topics of discussion. I was so looking forward to diving into those topics and writing my thoughts. What's funny though, is the fact that when I think "I want to write about X because of Y" I don't... And then I add it my list of shit to write about because it seems important to my life. BUT then, I get the moment to write and I forget why I even gave a flip.

I have a chip on my shoulder tonight, and I want it to go away. I begin my summer classes tomorrow and internship on Tuesday. I am taking 3 classes and is going to be a son of a biscuit eater because I legit will only see my family on Friday- Sunday nights. So this is when you feel bad for me. I will be at "work" from 8-? And then class from 5-10 Tuesday's and Thursday's, class from 8-10 Monday's and Wednesday's. I am preaching to the choir... I know this. Life gets busy and you just have to roll with it.

The big "what the whattttttt" is the fact that I don't get to stay home during the day this summer. Travis makes fun of me because I'm a little depressed by this, and he's all like "every other person in the world works year round".......... Congratulations, your gold medal is in the mail.
The problem is, I am used to being home due to the fact that I'm a teacher and I mentally prepare myself for my brain numbing blob that I become. If I was used to working year round I would find other times to detach my head and be relaxed.

So there you have it. Pissed off at life Meaghan.

On a lighter note, this weekend was perfect. Even though Travis didn't catch me a catfish... It was still perfect.

I hope my advisor is right in saying... Meaghan, you'll get through the busy time and look back thinking, how in the hell did I make it through.

Here's to all you, you have worked your tail off all while making it through and being pretty awesome while doing whatever it was! I cheers to you.. With my delicious margarita.

Happy June.
Xo
Megs

down with the weirdness

I am back. Its been a LONG time. So much to write about, but no time. Since I wrote last time, grad school picked back up, my student teacher came and went, my NHS kids were inducted, my best friends bridal shower came, her bachelorette party came, Camden started to crawl, school got hard, work got stressful, and my best friend got married. wahhhhhh. We are NOT young... and the world will set us on Fiyahhhhh.

I want to write about the said instances, but i have no time alone, like ever.

years ago, I wanted to be surrounded by people.

now

I

Lurk

in the

Dark.

I cherish my time alone.. and not in a weird pervy way.

I love my family, I love being with my boys. However, since Camden is mobile now, and my life has flipped its shit and decided to speed up, Meaghan really likes her down time.

So with that being said, this lady is going to surf the Internet in search for cute outfits (I really want the Tiffany colored Nike's...is that weird?) and jewelery. I am going to drink my wine, read the most sluttiest book ever, read about the fact that Beyonce probably had a surrogate, and then pass out. Ill probably throw in some BRAVO time too.. before Trav turns on that blasted storage wars....

CHEERS

In like a Lion, Out like a Lamb

I can feel it in my bones.

 

Spring has SpRuNg!!!!

You know how I know this? Well let me tell you..

(my spell check wont work.. FYI so don't judge my spelling, or lack thereof)

1. Travis is gone on the weekend again. When it's fall he's gone, hunting Bambi and when it's spring/summer he is fishing. When he isn't, he falls into a state of depression and throws temper tantrums. I was reminded of those awesome moments today when I said that we had a lot to do and that fishing may not be an option. One would think that I had two children. Now I am painting a bad picture of Trav, and that's not fair. Hunting is to Trav as talking on the phone is to me... pretty important.

2. My iTunes bill is going up. Every spring, summer I really want to have the BEST tunes to blare when my windows are down. So far, I have two that I am OBSESSED with. Gotye and Fun. Love these guys!

3. My skin is dry. Usually right before winter leaves us, my skin goes all ape shit and gets nasty. Except for last year, when I was 6 months pregnant and I was glowing and everything was perfect. Thankfully, DOVE has come out with something called, winter rescue. Amazing. My skin is also dry from me SPRING cleaning.

4. Travis is sick. Travis is always sick when the seasons change. Zyrtec please. Theraflu Please. This means that he will be a mouth breather, like Corey from Teen Mom. uck. God Love him.

5. Its walk around the neighborhood time. Everyone in our neighborhood walks, every night. Since I have a baby, I joined the crowd. HOORAY. Today was fantastic, Camden put a jacket on, and off we went. I used to walk Ollie, but hes too out of shape, and lays down on the sidewalk, refusing to move. Yep, its grand.

6. I was at my parents house this weekend, and I looked out in their backyard. Much like I did when I was little, to find the tiny sprouts of the Daffodils. Thats a true sign that Spring is a coming!

7. Easter crap is out. Cadbery eggs and all.. woof.

8. Momma wants to SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP. Last year I wasnt able to partake because my body was morphed, and my ankles couldnt withstand a cute pair of wedges. Guess what.. Game on.

9. Prom season. I was driving to work the other day and along the side of the road, there were homemade signs that read " Taylor..... ____________ ....will..... you..... go.... to..... prom..... with ....me?...... From: ______". It was precious. All the kids at school are twitterpaited... its actually quite annoying.. and gross, people are making out everywhere. Worst of all, the break ups after prom.. WATCH OUT.. it World War High School.

10. This is the last week with a February date. HOORAHHHH!

Enjoy the Oscars Kids!

xo Megs xo

*BOO* I scared you

OK so I am not a "frady" cat (I mean I can almost make it through Paranormal Activity and ALL of Chucky), but some things really really make me nervous. When Meaghan is nervous, all I do it fret about that, and then I get zits. Then I fret about my zits and then lose my hair. vicious cycle. Sometimes the nerves are over important things and then sometimes not so important things.

At this moment, I am nervous that someone is going to walk into my office and catch me blogging, and rocking out to something with cuss words......in a school. GASP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Another thing I am nervous about at this moment is that my soda is almost empty and that gives me anxiety.

REAL TALK-

Camden is 7 months young.

BOO! KAPOW! SHAZING! WHAP! (whatever else was on my batman underwear when I was little).

The fact that Camden is 7 months old frightens me. It shakes my core. Not because he is growing up so quick *sobs* but because there are super important things to worry and deal with at this age. First and foremost, this is the age of teeth. I mean, teeth are no joke people. Sometimes I feel like I could end up in the corner of some dark room rocking back and forth because teeth make my sweet angel into the exorcist. Friends that don't have children are probably annoyed by my Facebook posts regarding teeth, but holy geez. ENOUGH ALREADY. I read the most depressing thing yesterday... every child will get 20 teeth. EXCUSE ME? 20... Cam hasn't even birthed one of those buggers and you expect me, Meaghan, moi, to deal with 20 teeth. I knew it was coming for me, all those nights I snuck out of the house, or lied to my  parents, or did not so nice things.. yep, Karma, Hi, Welcome to the Krukemeier House. I think I will put the garlic, crosses and wood stakes out this weekend. Stuffs getting wild round here.

Secondly, now that Camden is on the downside of the year. Hes on the grown up side if you will.. hes getting further and further away from baby. This means he is supposed to be reaching certain milestones. This freaks me out. This doesn't freak me out because I don't think that he will achieve these goals, but I am nervous in the sense that people are going to judge him. I know how parents are, and I know how kids are, and frankly they are MEAN. I have a feeling this is the beginning of the "judging" age. I am here to karate chop people for you Camden. If you don't want to crawl or walk until your 40.. that's OK. Ill donkey kick people who look at you with side eye. Better yet, I will have Daddy donkey kick.. hes REAL good at it. (I'm not kidding, its pretty legit).

Thirdly, Now that Cam is 7 months, I am starting to get nervous about number two. UMM NO.. I'm NOT expecting. I don't know what is going on with my brain, but I am starting to forget all the sweet things about baby stage, and in my weird world, to fix this.. have another. I worry about making the right decision about having another. When is it right? When are you ready? AHH ZIT! What if Camden hates the new baby? Will I love the second one as much? A lot of my friends are on their second, so I think I will sit back and enjoy their show. The only things I am capable of having another of is, pizza, beer, soda, piece of candy and when I am real wild, a rummy bear.

Enough rambling already. I know people are thinking, "GET A GRIP MEGS". So I will leave you with a picture that describes my life... and then I need to go finish planning my Honor Society Banquet..HA.

peace, love and Teeth.

Unique

So we went to the doctor the other day because Camden had an ear ache. Well, we didn't know for sure, but he was yanking at it.. So in baby that means "hey it hurts". Years from now, the yanking might mean other things... Too far? :)

Totally going off subject, my dog just farted so bad that I almost gagged. . He's really got to stop doing that. It's like the smell of skunk, or your smelly feet.. You can't stop smelling it. You do that right?

Ok so back to the doctor. We went and he instantly felt better, standard. However, he did have an ear infection.
While we were there I wanted to talk to the doc about a few things Camden was doing these days.. One in particular. Camden has been putting his face really really close to things. He looks like my parents trying to read the paper... Ok so now you have a visual, face close to stuff. Real close. I think he is going to need glasses. So I was scared to ask.. But I did.

The doctor chuckled.... Camden was doing the face thing with the paper on the exam table... After observing him she diagnosed him... Meaghan, he is what we call a sensation baby..... He likes the feeling of stuff on his face (blankets, toys..etc) and then he will become the kid that shakes his head back and forth to watch the lights go by, and then when he's older he will be the kid who enjoys dizzy dinosaur and the feeling of spinning. I pause, take it all in, and then say...so my kid is weird? And she said no...its normal...He's unique :)

And it begins.

Travis said... It's because he wasn't breast fed :)

Happy Grammy night everyone! Rip whit!

Dear Camden

Dear son,

You just found your penis. Lord help me. You have the most immature mother and father and we just laughed at you while you examined yourself. Good times at our house lately.
You also rolled over both ways and haven't stopped since. Busy week! Today you went to the doctor and she said you are great!! Hooray.
She also Said that you might crawl soon... You also have very lazy parents and that makes me nervous that my down time is getting ready to come to screaming halt. That's ok though


Anyways, you still fill my heart with love and it's more and more every day. It's amazing really. This month you started stage 2 foods and you love chicken and turkey... Wow. I'm kinda excited to give you a whole turkey. It'll prob be cheaper than formula and baby food. You also love peaches and veggies. You're a great eater. . Hooray. This month you continue to bounce in your jumper, you walk around in your walker and you roll every where. You ate such a pleasure and a happy baby. You belly laugh and it makes your daddy and I bust up. You're a keeper. I love you!

Tata for now..

Mommy

Heres to Sister..... All of you.

I dont know what it is about today, or about everyday lately, in general. But I miss my sistas from otha mistas so stinking much. I think it started by talking to a friend at work whose son is pledging Pi Kappa Alpha. She was dying not being able to talk to him, and laughing about the shopping list of things that he was to bring with him. I laughed inside, because I remember when Travis pledged PKA and all that was involved. Not to mention, remembering my own pledge new member experience.

Talking with her about rituals and such made me miss all those years... like... A LOT. Not too much longer after this conversation with my co-worker, I got a text at night from one of my very best girls (sorority sister) that said.. I. MISS. YOU. Nothing more, nothing less. right back at you friend, right back at ya.

When in life do you think you stop remincising, and move on with it. Perhaps accept the fact that the "best" time of your life is over. I still try and reach the amount of fun that I had in college on the occasion that Trav and I go out. Now, I know what you are thinking, and judging me about the fact that I said the best time of my life was in the past.

True.

Yes.

 Totally.

Best as in, carefree, never again being able to "find" yourself, learn so much, meet so many interesting people, see so many OUTRAGEOUS things, do things like dumb, dumber, and dumbest...best as in laughing so hard you peed your pants, watching a friend climb into the ice chest, making your cook go crazy, white and black sheets, the freezing sleeping dorms, that one person blow drying their hair at 11 pm EVERY night (love you girl!). the 2 x 2 room, the swing talks out front, the song circle, walking to class with buds, canned yams, fried friday, the lack of spell check on the menus... best as in BEST milk, BEST water, best as in BEST friends, that you wouldn't have otherwise met. Best as in Best Shot at making your life right... so that the BEST time of your life, can lead  you to people and opportunities that make your best life, your BESTEST.

Anyways, this post is dedicated to all my girls. I miss you an incredible amount. February is coming up and that is the birthday month. (hence the title). So heres to Sister Jen, Rachel and Callie. I hope that your birthday's are fantastic!

in the flame.... haha.

Megs